Tuesday, September 2, 2014

After the Holiday

It was a great and long weekend.

I love this time of year. September is the beginning of Fall to me. My house is decorated for Fall and football started and all I need is the weather to turn cool.
Fall Beauty

I went to the store last night and turned the corner and there were the pumpkins. I couldn't believe they were in the stores this soon. They were beautiful but I can't buy them yet.

Labor Day consisted of doing a little shopping and eating lunch at Jersey Mike's and coming home and watching t.v. and then a short visit with my oldest.  Basically, a quiet day.

Over the weekend, I watched as much football as I could stand, which means, I watched it all day. :)  The most exciting game was LSU/Wisconsin game. I knew Les Miles would find a way to win. That man never ceases to amaze me. Baffles the mind.

Sunday, we went over to my friend's house for the Tennessee game. It stormed right before kickoff and afterwards this happened:

Photo: The rain is gone and there's a rainbow over Neyland Stadium.

After the storm, a rainbow appeared over the stadium. Loved it!

The start of our first football party of the season:

Photo: Our first football party of the year! Go Vols!!
Everyone is on their phones before the game. ;-)

It was a beautiful night for a win in a sold out stadium of 102, 455 fans!!

All in all it was a great Labor Day weekend and a great way to say goodbye to summer.

He changes times and seasons, deposing some kings and establishing others. He gives wisdom to the wise; he imparts knowledge to those with understanding; Daniel 2:21

I am glad seasons change. Each season has it's good and bad.  Fall is my favorite season and it seems like summer was gone is a flash.

He spreads snow like a white fleece,
    he scatters frost like ashes,
He broadcasts hail like birdseed—
    who can survive his winter?
Then he gives the command and it all melts;
    he breathes on winter—suddenly it’s spring! Psalm 147

This season of life is about to change for me. I will turn 50 this coming Sunday. A new decade. A new driver's license picture. (blech)

Life has been hard for many years now. I hope and pray that God will give me some rest as I turn 50. I want to see some seasons of difficulty pass. This season will bring me a grandson around Thanksgiving.

I am thankful to God for all the blessings in my life and for the strength to get through the hard times. I am thankful HE changes seasons and times and I am praying for exceedingly and abundant blessings in this decade. I'm praying that I will serve God in the areas He wants me too.

Our seasons may seem long and like they are never going to change but God does change them in His time.

Enjoy your Fall season and have a blessed week!

Sunday, August 24, 2014

When God Doesn't Make Sense

There will be times in our lives when we are going through something or we pray about something and something happens that leaves you in total disbelief and thinking, God, why? This doesn't make sense.

I was there this past week. My family and I were praying for mom while she was in the hospital and asking God to correct her doctor's mistake and God had placed several verses on my heart to pray and I prayed and believed that what we were praying for would happen; but it did not happen that way.

Now, mom is stuck with a hospital bill that she can't pay and because she wasn't admitted as inpatient , her insurance won't pay and she couldn't get the therapy she needed. She was weak and needed rehab. Instead, my sister had to discharge her from the hospital and bring her home. We talked or tried to talk to everyone from case managers to the CEO of the hospital. There was nothing that could be done.

I am going to be honest here:  I was mad. Mad at the doctor, mad at the staff of the hospital and mad and confused at God.  I know in my heart that I should not be mad at God but I was mad. Actually, I felt more disappointed and betrayed than anything.

I was afraid for mom to come home without having rehab and I was afraid we would not be able to care for her. It was a very stressful week and to be here on a Sunday morning, and the fact that I can share this with my faith in tact, is nothing BUT God.

Again, being honest,  it took me a day to go back to God and to be able to pray again.  I asked a friend of mine to pray for me. I was struggling in my faith. I talked with my son and he was feeling the same way and we are prayer and accountability partners. We talked it out and then we got real before God.

We laid out all our emotions, the good, the bad and the ugly emotions right before God.  Beth Moore tweeted the other day, no matter how raw your emotions are, take them to God. We did just that.

I felt better after praying; but I am still a little hurt with all that didn't happen.

Here's the thing,

It all comes back to trusting God.  In times like I just mentioned, God will test our faith.  I found mine to be lacking. I wasn't trusting God. I gave in to my fear instead of trusting God and I wasn't thanking Him no matter what happened.

I have been a Christian for a long time; but at times our faith can get knocked down, right from under us, if we are not alert and not paying attention to our enemy, satan, who prowls around seeking who he may devour.

I felt like my faith had been devoured and it was my fault. Not God's; but my fault.

God waits for us. God lets us be totally honest with Him about everything we are going through. He never stops loving us and He is always faithful! Even when we think He failed us.

So, when God doesn't make sense, still trust Him. When you begin feel like your faith is struggling, take it to God. When you feel hurt, take it to God. When you are fearful, take it to God.

If you find yourself in a place that I was in, pray and ask God to strengthen your faith and give glory to God. I am going to pray this verse this week for myself.

Have a blessed Sunday.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Do Not Fear

Today I'm grateful that no matter what difficulties came across my life, no matter how hard it got, it always worked out to my benefit. Sometimes it took hours, days, or years to understand how everything fell into place for my greater good, but nevertheless it always, always did. I wish that today you'll come to believe that no matter what you're going through, you are never left alone in your difficulty, and everything is evolving just as you should, to your benefit.. ~~Angela from www.calligraphybyangela.com

Don't be afraid, for I am with you! Don't be frightened, for I am your God! I strengthen you--yes, I help you--yes, I uphold you with my saving right hand! 

Yesterday, problems arose with mom and her care in the hospital and we were told a lot of things, none of which were encouraging or good. It makes me mad when insurance is the top priority over a person's health.

The only thing that held  us together was God. His promise of being with us and taking care of us and bringing the victory in this situation.

Bible verse

Pray and Praise and Gratitude.

Thank you God for doing the impossible in all our lives. We don't have to fear because you are with us and never leave us. I give you praise and thanks for working everything out and meeting all of our needs. You alone are worthy to be praised! Amen.

Give it to God but don't Give Up! God is on your side!

Have a blessed day!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Making Decisions

Matthew 6:34. I can't say I'm religious or have even read the entire bible, but I have always loved this verse

At any moment, we can be placed in situations where we have to make decisions and it may be something we aren't sure of or have any idea of what to do.

My family and myself are in that very place right now. Nothing is easy about what we are trying to decide for our elderly mom.  Nothing has been easy since daddy died. . It's been hard. It's not an easy thing to watch your mom grieve and deal with her own health issues.

I am thankful for prayer and thankful that God knows our hearts and what we are facing and He knows the direction we should choose.

I have no idea other than to lean on God.

When God tell us in  1 Peter 5:7,   Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. That is what I am doing today.

Here is verse six and seven:  Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, 7 casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. 8 Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.…

God knows the anxiety we face and the troubles we go through and verse eight tell us to be on alert because the enemy is prowling around seeking to devour us. This tells me that the enemy will try his best to upset us and cause destruction in our lives OR to us; but God wants us to throw ALL our cares on Him and He will take care of us. I also know that God will take care of our enemy while He is taking care of us.

A few more verses that go along with the verses above:

Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: Ps. 37:5

But as for me, I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay.  Ps. 40:17

Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken. Ps. 55:22

Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your plans. Proverbs 16:3

It all comes down to trusting. Trusting God. Believing that He will protect us and care for us and direct our steps, give us wisdom and the help we need when we need it.

God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? Numbers 23:19

If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself. 2 Timothy 2:13

The LORD said to me, "You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled."

I have used a lot of scripture this morning but really, can we ever have too much of God's Word? :)

These verses are helping me this morning and if you happen to stop here this morning and if you are going through a difficult time, I hope this encourages you as it has encouraged me.

Isaiah 40:29

Monday, August 18, 2014

The Unknown

Good morning quote via www.Facebook.com/JoyEachDay

Yesterday, my brother and I spent the day at the hospital with mom. She isn't doing all that well since her second seizure; but she will talk and I even got her to laugh a little.

I have thought over and over if God is getting ready to take her. I know she misses daddy so much and wants to be in heaven. My heart is so sad and heavy over thinking of the day mom will no longer be here with us and at the same time, I am happy for her that she will be with Jesus.

It was a short 15 months ago daddy died and mom has had the hardest time since then. Being married for 51 years to someone and then suddenly they are gone is something that I don't believe you will ever adjust to. Mom having brain cancer and dementia makes it even worse on her.

She told me yesterday, she wishes daddy was here with her. She also is tired of being in pain. Pain can make it so hard on a person who lives with it day in and day out and add grief into the mix and if a person doesn't have Jesus, I just don't know how a person would be able to live.

It's Monday, mom has an EEG today. I'm not sure what this day holds and I still have a sadness in my heart. Even though I am nearing 50 in a few weeks, it's the saddest thing to not have your parents here with you.

My desire is for mom to live several more years with us as long as she has a good quality of life.

Dying is a part of life but pardon me by saying that death just sucks.

Grief is a weird thing to go through. It can hit you at any time. The best thing is to not fight it. To go through the grief and mourning.

BUT, if you are a Christian we have this:

Brothers and sisters, we don’t want you to be ignorant about those who have died. We don’t want you to grieve like other people who have no hope. 14 We believe that Jesus died and came back to life. We also believe that, through Jesus, God will bring back those who have died. They will come back with Jesus. 15 We are telling you what the Lord taught. We who are still alive when the Lord comes will not go into his kingdom ahead of those who have already died. 16 The Lord will come from heaven with a command, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trumpet call of God. First, the dead who believed in Christ will come back to life. 17 Then, together with them, we who are still alive will be taken in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. In this way we will always be with the Lord. 18 So then, comfort each other with these words! 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18

I look forward to the day when we all, who have believed in Jesus Christ and received Him as our Savior will be in heaven with Him and our family members who have gone on ahead of us. That will be the best reunion we will ever experience and it will never end.

Have a blessed day.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Sunday Encouragement

#Christian quotes / #Bible quotes #faithlauncher

I am so thankful God directs our steps.

Yesterday, my brother and family friend and myself went to the hospital to visit with mom and my brother and I  walked in the room and mom was sleeping. She had a blanket over her face and she was snoring. We sat there for a minute and debated if we wanted to wake her up.

We decided we wanted to wake her up and it took longer than normal. She usually wakes up pretty easily but this time she wasn't able to do that and her eyes looked different and she couldn't focus. My brother went to get a nurse and I stayed with her and she could hear me but couldn't see me. Her mouth started drooping.

At first, they thought she was having a stroke but it was another seizure. They treated her immediately and she was a little better within an hour. I think she would have died if we had not walked in. The nurses had just walked in thirty minutes before we got there and they said she was fine.

I know God directed our steps to be there at that time.

Mom doesn't want to suffer any more pain and I don't want her to either. She told us yesterday that she would rather die and go be with daddy in heaven than suffer another seizure and pain.  I'm not sure what God's plan is at this time but I know God has a plan. He directed our steps yesterday and He will reveal His will and plan for today and in the days to come. God is in control.

God will give you the direction you need to go, he will reveal His will to you and He will supply all your needs. He is trustworthy. Believe.

Happy Sunday! Have a blessed day!