As of yesterday, mom is home with hospice. She had a stroke last week. It was a surprise even with her health problems and they discovered two new brain tumors.
The fact that that I have had peace this week and strength can only be contributed to God.
Two years ago, our father passed away and it seems like that was just yesterday and now we face it again with mom but we don't face it alone. God is always with us.
Deuteronomy 31:8, The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
I honestly thought that mom would pass away in the hospital, but God allowed her to come home for her final days. We would rather her be here with all of us than at the hospital.
In times like this you are reminded that every single day, minute and second is precious. Every day is a gift from God and every single day His mercies are new. I love Him.
In the darkest times, God's light shines the brightest. In the darkest times, God's grace deeply abounds and His presence is so evident and His peace passes all understanding. It really is a beautiful and bittersweet time.
If you are a parent, you know how time quickly flies by and before you know it, your child is graduating high school, or college and getting married and having children of their own and suddenly you are a grandparent and you are wondering how in the world your child or children grew up so fast. Really, in a blink of an eye, they are grown and out of the home.
That's how I feel about watching both of my parents in their final days on this earth. Tears and deep sadness can hit you at any moment and I am thankful that God cares about every tear that all of us shed.
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. Ps. 56:8
He observes them with tender concern. Jesus is so sweet and caring.
Through all mom has been through in her life, mom has always loved God and she will tell anyone who is taking care of her in the hospital about God and she has been a tremendous witness for Him in her suffering.
I am not going to lie, I am a little jealous that she will soon see Jesus face to face. I don't want to lose her but I don't want her to suffer anymore. I know she will be out of pain and no more suffering and no more tears and she will be healed and whole but we will greatly miss her.
It's an odd feeling to think that we will no longer have parents on this earth.
A few verses that comes to mind right now:
Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. 1 Thess. 4:14
Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later. Romans 8:18
Keep your hope in Christ, He will not fail you.